I know exactly what you mean. this is the feeling of lonlyness and being away of family and loved ones . Hope you feel better soon

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حس خوبی یه . دوستش دارم !

This is life here in the US , you have to tap into your own source for love.no one will care about you as much as yourself.I think the key is to change your thought process so you are no longer a prisoner of your thought that in turn control your feelings.I would like to suggest you read some of the works of the Indian philosopher Krishnamurti , hehas nothing to do with Hari Krishnas.,etc...try to live in the moment,the past is gone and does not exist and tomorrow is not real either. I have seen your work and have followed your thoughts from iranian.com to here. you have had a long trek. we all have come a long way to here. it's not easy when you try to adapt but i think like many other bright iranian women you're doing great. takecare

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